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Endometriosis: An Emotional Roller Coaster

These days, you hear so many people saying they've been on a journey. Or an emotional roller coaster. The term somewhat loses its meaning. Yet when it comes endometriosis, there really is no other explanation. From one day to the next, you don't know what's around the corner. Last week I was at such a low point. I felt that all my strength had gone. I felt weak and extremely down. I even blogged about losing my faith. 

It is important to remember that tough times never last... but tough people do! A few days later, I am feeling re-energised. I'm not jumping for joy or bouncing off the walls. But I'm content. And that's a massive difference to how I felt last week. 

When these bad days pop up, they can really hit you hard. As much as you try to look for a way through the pain and darkness, it doesn't always present itself. I'm ok today but don't know what tomorrow will bring for me. I wanted to post this update so that anyone who is in a similar situation can look forward to better days. They will come. I promise. A roller coaster has highs and lows and lots of loops. But it always comes to an end. If things are not ok for you at the moment. It's not the end. Hang in there.


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