I am really struggling. Endometriosis seems to be taking a hold over my life and I seem to be giving it much more control than I would like. But I'm struggling to do anything different. I'm totally fed up of fighting the pain, taking medication and more than anything, I'm fed up of waiting for better days.
For nearly three weeks straight, I've had continuous heavy bleeding with clots. I'm used to this and have experienced it before, but never to the level and heaviness it has been recently. It has really worried me and I've felt quite scared at times. I went to my doctors who prescribed Mefenamic Acid and Tranexamic Acid to help reduce the flow and pain. Along with more Tramadol. My doctor explained that when we have clots with our bleeding, our cervix goes into contractions in order to pass the clots. Which in turn, causes us even more pain. I felt quite optimistic leaving the appointment, especially after talking to a GP that actually had knowledge on Endometriosis.
At the moment, I feel like I'm back at square one. The pain is so intense. I am terrified that my Endometriosis has got worse. I just have a gut feeling about it and know that its progressed again. It's worrying me that I cant do anything about the pain apart from resorting to morphine. I'm running out of ideas. I've asked for a letter to be sent to the hospital, to see if my referral could be prioritised.
I'm frustrated at the situation I find myself in. I'm frightened of the unknown and above all, I'm so fed up of hoping. Can someone please lend me their hope?