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I have Endometriosis. Endometriosis has me.

I sat in my room in complete darkness. Tears rolling down my face. I closed my eyes whilst wishing for things to get better. To feel better. Praying to be ok. To feel ok. I opened my eyes. Nothing had changed...

I still have Endometriosis. And at the moment, Endometriosis has me. 




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  1. Thank you for sharing your story. I was diagnosed with endometriosis a little over a year ago after my husband Chad and I had been struggling with infertility for several years. We created a video for the "I Believe" Video Journal Project, which is meant to raise awareness for infertility. Please watch our video and vote for us (Chad and Kim Smith) at http://haveababy.com/believe-2013-videos/. If enough people vote, we can win a free IVF cycle. Voting starts Wednesday, November 20th and ends on December 1st. Thank you for helping us start the family we have been hoping and praying for! I will be praying for an resolution to your pain. Thank you for helping to raise awareness for endometriosis.

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