Monday, 4 March 2013

The Endometriosis Effect..

I have mentioned a few times that Endometriosis does not come alone. (Click to see previous blog). It has an impact on all areas of our lives; our health & well being, social & emotional interactions, physical capabilities and our employment amongst others. This week my employment status has taken a direct hit. As from tomorrow, Tuesday 5th of March I will be officially unemployed.

I have worked for my current company for 9 years. A few weeks ago I was called up for a meeting with the Operations Manager. I was told they were starting the process to terminate my contract due to 'job capability'. Not that I am not capable of doing my work correctly and achieving all targets set, but due to my illness and sickness from work. This week I handed in my notice as I didn't want to be fired for something, which at the moment, I can't control. I had a feeling this day would come sooner rather than later. I've had to take so many sick days and long term sick from work due to Endo. It's such a shame it has come to this after working there for so long. Admittedly, towards the end I wasn't entirely happy working there. Lack of support and understanding one factor, stress of targets another. The hardest factor was just getting out of bed on a bad day. I'd be worn out before I'd even get to my desk.

On the other hand, as soon as I gave in my notice, it was like a tonne of weights had been lifted off my shoulders. I had instant relief and felt quite positive. The way i'm looking at it for now is that it's one less thing to stress about. Constantly worrying about how much time I've had off, hitting targets, or attending meetings with management really took it out of me. Dealing with Endo alone is bad enough without everything else thrown on top. For now I'm going to concentrate on me and my health. Focusing on that alone without other external factors getting me down, I'm hoping will help! Then I can start looking for other employment options.

I look forward to getting myself back on track..soon!